New Beginnings in a New Year!

Hello to all my regular readers and friends who have been kind enough to give me this month break from writing during January and to all who are new here.

The month of January was busy, joyful, stressful, challenging, trying and productive for me.

Much was spent feeling like I was in some kind of middle ground between what has been and what will be a new beginning and a season of growth and fulfillment of things longed.

January became the time for me to beginning learning about some lifelong personal challenges and the beginning of learning how to work with them in a way that they are no longer disabilities, but challenges that free me even more to live loved and to live love.

I am becoming more and more convinced that the root of all sin, interpersonal difficulties, and conflict in this life is the result of not living as fully loved by our creator, God, Father… and not living love.

That the more we, become convinced of and understand Father is selfless, sacrificial, transformational love the more we we/I will love one our neighbors in that same way.

It is the key to freedom from the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride of life.

As we will become content with what Father has provided us with, the measure provided, and our esteem will be in our relationship with him.

Therefore, we will not lust for more and live humbly preferring one anther above ourselves.

This progressive process increases as our relationship with Father, Son, Holy Spirit and each other grow.

This month I purchased a Mazda Miata MX-5 convertible roadster/sports care I mentioned in December I was planning to purchase in January.

It is a red/black 2001 with only 44,000 miles on the odometer and until now spent most of its life garaged only driven in warm weather on weekends by its original owner.

It would be a base model except that the owner rather than purchasing one of the factory packages special ordered it with the features he wanted resulting in a factory build one-off custom automobile.

I had watched many vehicles via internet automobile sales websites that I was interested in looking as potential purchases.

This one in particular came available for sale about a month ago and of all it was closest and in the best overall condition and the one, I liked the looks of the best and had all of the specific factory installed features I was looking for.

It was being offered for sale $2000 below Kelly bluebook, which is what most car dealers and many car enthusiasts use to decide dollar value of used vehicles.

I really believe that Father chose this specific vehicle for me.

Last week one of the goals I scheduled for completion in January was finally complete and that enabled me to be able to make the purchase and the dealer I purchase, which is one without negotiable prices dropped the price that Monday another $1000 below Kelly Bluebook.

I believe that was a “God thing.”

Well I am pleased to be “back in the saddle” writing again and I hope you all enjoyed and benefitted from my first post of 2010.

I have some changes I am considering this year for this blog and I believe my writings will become more Christ centered and speak much less about what’s wrong and simply focus on building relationship with Father and each other and growing community in the Church/community rather than building manmade structures and programs.

I hope to build a bridge between myself and those who choose to participate in more structured instructional settings.

To be honest I have painted it as if no one in institutional churches has a genuine heart for authentic relationships and real community and true.

In doing so I believe to some degree, I have given reason for some to doubt my love for the Church/ecclesia and I must confess I believe some of that was I speaking through the filter of unhealed wounds, perhaps even bitterness.